I find that one of the ways to repentance is to call things by their name. Example: You know Allah commanded us to wear hijab.* Hence when you are not wearing it, it means you are disobeying that command thus disobeying Allah. You are DISOBEYING Allah This is what you should call it. No matter your reason or excuse Just reevaluate Be honest and see whatever prevents you whether it is a good reason to disobey Allah. Is there any good reason at all to disobey Allah to begin with. No. So that’s how calling things by their name makes you close to repentance if not take you directly to it. Because telling yourself you are disobeying Allah and telling yourself that you are waiting to be convinced are two different things. If you are just waiting to be conviced what are you waiting for exactly because the evidences are already there. *You just need a couple minutes to gather evidences read them and accept them. Because we don’t reject commands simply for not being able to fully grasp the reason and wisdom behind them. We accept them. And the thing is, Allah knew your “obstacles” and “excuses” before you or anybody else was born, He still commanded everybody and you included with the same things; nobody was exempt from smtg. It didnt say next to each command or obligation: “unless you struggle or face some wordly life thing then it’s fine…” all the obligations have to be obeyed by everybody unless the pen is lifted from their scroll. Even the sick still has to pray and make up for fasts when able to or feed the poor. Is it worth it to not decide to do that now? To go check the evidences when you have no knowledge of when your journey in this life ends. And, by the same way, to get more knowledge about your obligations and how to properly perform them before anything else. Sometimes if not most of the time what prevents us from moving forward is ignorance. How can you do something if you ignore that you have to be doing it or how it is supposed to be done. When you know you are disobeying Allah and that it is bad you are more likely to stop as soon as possible. Unlike calling things otherwise to comfort your consciousness. It applies to everything not just hijab. Call your actions by their true name. Be responsible for whatever you choose to do anyways. Be true to yourself. Don’t try to tranquilize your consciousness. The more you call things otherwise the more you dive deep in illusions and lies you tell yourself and end up believing them. Don’t forget that it’s not for you to define what is good or bad, what is sinful and what isn’t. Only He Who created everything can do so. He Knows everything, He knows the wisdom behind everything and the nature of everything , as He created it. Thus it can only be wise not to follow your own definitions of things. But try to acquire more knowledge about the actual definition of things. Just because something makes you happy or makes you feel at peace doesn’t mean it is right. Even when something brings you stillness it doesn’t mean it is right. Everything should be reached through the right means. Like someone stealing money to buy a house. It’s not because he has the comfort of that house now that stealing money was fine or right. He should have reached that through the right means. So we see here how being homeless and struggling to get a shelter is better than stealing to get a house. The point is to be still, to be satisfied but through the right ways. It’s not really the way you feel that always reflects how well you are doing in life and whether or not you are doing it right. “Right is right even if no one is doing it; wrong is wrong even if everyone is doing it.” ― Saint Augustine So if you care, learn what is wrong, try to be honest with yourself, take notes of the wrong things you are doing, see what is preventing you to do things right and how you can replace the wrong, how you can do things the right way. Because sometimes it could be reall